i am slowly losing the motivation to let the world know what i’m thinking of.
especially when you can’t allow yourself to let the rest of the world know about what you’re thinking, simply cos those thoughts are far too private.
so i guess, this blog will be quite dead for a while eh.
4 days.
this is a funny feeling.
it’s as if there’s something missing.
i can blame it on the four semiquavers of bar 324, the one count that destroys the whole of Die Fledermaus for me.
but i don’t think that’s quite it.
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8 days.
think i was a brat through this band camp.
i should stop being so short-sighted. i can’t see anywhere beyond me. and i really think i should stop that.
really sorry to everyone for being so mood-swingy!
and thanks for the awesome band camp.
thanks seniors, thanks instructors, thanks everyone(:
two more weeks.
i wanna walk off knowing i’ve done my best, knowing we all have.
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who knows, i may actually miss this experience.
combined woodwind sectionals today with Mr Khoo. found it rather productive, least that last movement sounds okay now 
we got quite a good deal of free food today, though i didn’t eat very much. was good though
demo band performance was… woah. it’s full of a bunch of really pro freaks people *ahem**Weixiang**ahem**Nazreen*
haha, Mr Tan wants the sop sax solo in Die Fledermaus to be seductive. haha, i have to learn how to sound seductive man. and yes, it’s very very far from natural for me.
also, i need to learn how to do vibrato! it’s really really important man… so, on Monday, i’m going to beg Mr Khoo to stay up for another hour or so until i master vibrato!
still can’t quite absorb that we’re less than three weeks away from SYF. man, there’s no time left whatsoever… so for these three weeks, i’m going to give my ALL to band. i’m going to get prepared to fail tests D:
wonder if i should be going out at all this holiday, or if i should go home and practise my clarinet. time to cram practice, just as us kids cram studying!
speaking of studying, i hate my projected score. it makes me feel so inadequate.
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i like seeing YPSB people. seeing them makes me very happy(:
so yeah. 100th post.
just a few quick updates… this last week of school feels nothing like the last week of school. it feels just as busy as any other week, with plenty of projects/performance tasks due.
one thing different this week was NAFA concert.
i definitely don’t regret going, even though i stayed up till 1am cos of the English essay that was due the next day. i don’t regret going, even though my mum has since forbidden me from going to any weekday concert.
i’m in love with Noah’s Ark and With Heart and Voice. lovely lovely pieces, even though i doubt i’ll ever get a chance to play them. all the best to AMK and Commonwealth band!
met plenty of people at NAFA. felt simply awesome to be seeing them again. in order, i met Nazreen, Jay, Kenny, Shawn, Sharlyn, Weixiang and Weilin. everyone apart from Jay were people i hadn’t seen since goodness knows how many months ago, so it really was awesome seeing them again
it was great to see people.
can’t wait to see them again on Saturday(:
wish i would just stop living in the past. wish i would just move on and live in the present.
funny how others can move on so easily. funny how they can look forward and seem to give so little regard for all those happy memories.
but it’s time to move on. it’s waay past time to move on.
i’ve had happy memories in the past.
present, give me a reason to like you.
i’ve got plenty of reasons to hate you already. spare me and give me a reason to like you, won’t you?
for now, i’m just going to drown myself in band music and Noah’s Ark. i’m seriously in love with it man.
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facebook is such a distraction.
the outside world is such a distraction.
all of these stupid thoughts are such distractions.
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i don’t wanna say goodbye.
i never wanna say goodbye.
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oh for crying out loud.
just snap out of this stupid phase.
times like this, i really wish i could just give up and act as if i never had any hope for it at all.
so please, just one more time, just to kill that last strand of hope.
one last time, and i hope i won’t be as dumb as to continue hanging on.
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yes, i’m staying off chocolate for a month. no, i’m not kidding, a month.
go leewei. resist the temptation!
i honestly think i’m going to screw up my composition test tomorrow, just as i screwed up my Lit, and if i don’t study, my SS test as well.
ah, damn it. i don’t have time to study now. why is it taking so long to download >_<
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don’t worry about me.
i’m fine. really(:
when will i finally grow out of teen angst.
leewei wants to stop caring about how others look at her, but damn, it just gets more and more difficult.
and i’m seriously falling in love with Noah’s Ark.
it’s a gorgeous gorgeous piece.
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sigh.
she’s just such a stupid stupid little girl.
